At times over the past few weeks, I’ve felt a certain disconnect. So much so, after being around my family the other evening, I called my friend to talk it over with her.
She said, “It’s very normal. You’ve been through a lot of emotional upheaval the past few weeks. It’s your way of coping Its ok. Just know that it won’t last!”
Sometimes, I would prefer if my friends were wrong. But then again, that’s why I call the trusted and true because they know.
The above conversation took place on Wednesday evening. By Thursday morning, I was a mess.
Terry said, “What’s wrong! Why are you crying?”
Between sobs I said, “I miss him.”
“I know. I miss him too. I miss my Mom and Dad too. It’s ok to cry. ”
After I dried up, I recalled the conversation from a few nights before with my cousin, Greg.
It was Monday. The evening before my Uncle Howard passed.
Standing by my car with my door ajar. Greg said, “There’s something you need to know. I need to tell you”
My ears were perked and ready.
“On Saturday evening, Dad was standing, in his own strength. Suddenly he fell back into my arms and stopped breathing. I just knew it was the end. I held him for a few minutes. He began breathing again. I got him back into bed. Then he sat straight up and said, ‘I don’t know why God brought me back.’ Greg was confused at his comment and questioned him further. Uncle Howard responded, ‘I went to heaven. I saw Mack (my Daddy) and Linda (their sister) and they were beautiful. I just don’t know why God sent me back'”
Fighting to keep composure to drive home, I looked at Greg and said, “I know because somebody needed to hear this.”
Maybe it was me! Maybe I needed confirmation that all those who’ve gone before me have been made whole and beautiful. Maybe you need the same confirmation. Maybe someone who’s dying needs to hear, if they’ve given their heart to Christ, they will be made whole and beautiful. I don’t know who needs to hear it but someone surely does and maybe it’s just me!