I always say that when you believe in God, there is no such thing as coincidence. Everything is ordered and ordained by God, including discovering my Senior writing project from 1987. I found it yesterday and I know that it’s what I am suppose to share with you today.
A little back story before I get to the rewriting my story from 1987. I dearly love my Mom. She and I are not what some mothers and daughters are. We are not besties. We never have been. She always desired to be my best friend but we have always been vastly different. However, that doesn’t mean we’re not close. I would do anything for my Mom and she would do the same for me. I have a vivid memory. It’s scary sometimes. I remember vividly when my Mom was pregnant with my brother and when my dad died. I remember hearing her cry at night, when she thought I was sleeping. I felt her grief and agony when Daddy died. I had to be strong. I had to be brave. I had to hide my tears because I knew my tears would bring her more grief.
Doing this project during my Senior year of high school, really helped me express and release a lot of feelings I harbored and stuffed over the years. While this did not bring ultimate healing for my heartbreak over losing my Dad, it helped start the process.
I am now 49 years old, I turned in the final draft on May 18, 1987.
An Unforgettable Life
By Kelly Reese
I can remember back thirteen years ago when I was carrying my third child. Many sleepless and restless nights, I lay crying for fear of my baby’s birth and my husband’s death. Yes, it is still very clear in my mind.
When I first felt the flutters in my stomach, I ignored them. Then the weeks and months passed, and the fluttering was still there. My mother said, “Ann, you are crazy if you think that you are pregnant. There is no way. You are just overworked and tired from Mack’s illness.” So I decided that she was right, until I went to the doctor.
The doctor informed me that I was over three months pregnant. I was terrified. “What will I tell Mack? What will he say?” were my thoughts. I hoped that it was just a dream, but it wasn’t. When I told Mack the news, I wept frantically. He put his strong arms around me and looked at me with his big blue eyes and said, “Don’t worry, God will take care of us. God has given us a gift. He has a purpose for this baby.” His reassurance and understanding gave me temporary relief; however, I was still scared to death. I was more frightened my husband would die before the baby was born.
For three months I cried, until I finally accepted the fact that this baby was coming regardless of what I wanted or how I felt. Mack was always supportive, although his condition worsened. The girls helped as much as they could.
My oldest daughter, Kelly, was six at the time. She knew that her father was dying and seemed to understand why. In fact, sometimes I think she understood more than I gave her credit. Maybe she understood even more than I did.
At the end of the nine months, the baby finally arrived and Mack was still alive. The night before David’s birth was restless and uncomfortable. I knew the baby wasn’t going to wait much longer. It was almost as if he were saying, “Mommy, it’s time for me to live in this world, but I’m scared.” The next morning I had to go to the doctor. Immediately, he sent me to the hospital. That afternoon, June 23, 1975 fireworks could have exploded, even though, it was the 4th of July, as excitement and jubilation filled the room.
After cleaning the baby, the doctor brought him to me. I asked, “What is it?” The doctor refused my plea and handed my the baby wrapped in a blanket. “Find out for yourself, ” he said. With Mack by my side, I carefully unwrapped the small bundle of joy, and to my great surprise it was a little boy. I cautiously glanced at Mack, who stood with tears in his eyes, as he said, “I told you God had a plan. I may die before morning, but at least I know I have a son.” His joy in trusting God made me feel ashamed of my reactions before David’s birth, and I began to cry. Then I looked at the baby, and he looked at me with glowing blue eyes as if he were saying, “Mommy, I know how you felt, but you love me now.” And I did love that miracle in my arms.
The months passed quickly and David grew strong and healthy as Mack grew weak and frail. David’s birth brought such joy into our lives along with many changes. The girls helped me take care of him and Mack as much as they could.
Mack became weaker and weaker. The doctors knew his time was drawing near. But Mack wouldn’t give up without a fight for his life. He knew that he couldn’t change the circumstances or make them go away, but he refused to give into death.
Seven weeks before his death we were taking a trip to Baptist Hospital in Winston-Salem. After arriving, Mack’s legs began to get weak. By the time the nurse arrived to take him to his room, he was paralyzed. They kept him in Winston-Salem for the next week; then upon his request, moved him to Pardee Hospital in Hendersonville.
I spent many hours traveling back and forth to the hospital, taking the children at least five times a week to visit him. In fact the visited him the night before he died. Evidently he knew he wouldn’t see them any more because he told the children how much he loved them.
The next morning I left early for the hospital. When I arrived, I knew that it wasn’t going to long, especially when I heard Mack saying things that did make sense. Then with those radiant blue eyes he looked at me and said, “I hope that one day they will find a cure, but it won’t be while I’m alive. I love you, Ann.”
Mack died on April 5, 1976; he was thirty-six year old. David was nine months old. Later in the day, I thought, “Lord, I’m too young to be widowed and left with three small children.” Then I remembered what Mack told me, “With faith in God, miracles can happen.” I turned around teary-eyed and watched my little miracle sleeping soundly in his crib, knowing that my husband was right.
After two years I remarried; but since the beginning of my last pregnancy, I have had an unforgettable life
Give me a few days to gather my thoughts and I will share what I had to say about the man who raised me and I call “Unforgettable”